In an online chat with a friend this morning, I realised that with the exception of Tod, my closest friends rank among the people I see the least often. I connect with online acquaintances daily, my teachers weekly, hoopers monthly, my true friends as whim and winds dictate, and family not even annually. A few dear friends make it into the monthly category because we both attend the same events.
Something is backwards here and I’m not sure how to fix it. By nature, I am an introvert and social interactions are not my forte but this is too skewed. Could I be afraid of being loved, being rejected, or showing my emotions? If I keep the people I care about most at a distance, then there is little chance I will be hurt by them. Hmmmmm….something to think about.